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Post by Dani on Jul 12, 2010 19:23:33 GMT -6
Jared just stared at Bragie, uncertain of all of this. "Um, yeah I can keep it a secret," he replied. He looked down at their hands and then back across to Bragie. He started to stare again, completely set off by this. He started to wonder if Bragie had liked him before all of this, or if he was just agreeing because Jared was the first gay teen he knew. Either that or he was being pranked.
"So, um, are you being serious?" he asked. He then paused for a bit before he decided to restate the question. "Like you're not pranking me or anything like that?" He watched the other boy still confused about all of this.
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Post by Myranda on Jul 12, 2010 21:57:59 GMT -6
Bragie shook his head, and let go of Jared's hand so he could his head in his hands in slight frustration. "I'm just as confused about this as you are. I don't know if I'm like... Gay or bi, or what. I just know that I'm attracted to you. And I have been for a while." He stayed holding his head in his hands for a while. What on earth had he just gotten himself into?
"It's not a prank, though. I swear. I'm not cruel." He said, looking back up at Jared. He wondered how he could prove it to him, that he meant it. Maybe he should just go, let Jared be on his own for a bit. "Do you need some time to think? Like, alone?" He asked, squinting his eyes in consideration. He stood up, ready to leave.
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Post by Dani on Jul 13, 2010 15:29:47 GMT -6
Jared bit his lip ring as he watched Bragie. He tilted his head slightly his thoughts still reeling and he still wondered if all of this was real. Out of habit, he ran a hand through his hair to fix it some and try to get the bangs out of his eyes. He looked down at the floor for a bit and then back up to Bragie once the other boy stood up. He still didn't say anything since he was still set off by all of this and now felt confused, he knew for certain that he was bi but he was confused about this whole thing with Bragie.
Soon he stood up after Bragie as he decided to try something out. Before he could change his mind, he stepped in front of Bragie and got up on his toes before he pressed his lips to Bragie's. His heart was up in his throat and he was somewhat nervous about the reaction he would get from Bragie, but he had to know for certain if Bragie was joking or not.
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Post by Myranda on Jul 13, 2010 17:08:12 GMT -6
Bragie was admittedly surprised at first. It was his first kiss, and he was beside himself. Not only was this his first time experiencing a kiss, he was experiencing it with a boy he could swear he loved. And the second he realized what was going on, he kissed back with intention. This moment was perfect, and engraved within him forever.
He moved hands onto Jared's waist and closed his eyes. His heart was pounding fiercely as he pushed his body against Jared's. He wasn't sure which heartbeat was his own or the other boy's, which showed him that Jared was just as exhilerated as he was. Though he was a year younger, he was bigger than the boy, and enjoyed feeling his arms around him.
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Post by Dani on Jul 14, 2010 18:33:21 GMT -6
The fact that Bragie kissed him back, only encouraged him. Jared kissed the other boy a bit more passionately and tightened his grip up around Bragie's neck. He still had to stand up on his toes to reach the other boy's lips, and he felt slightly awkward that he was older than Bragie but was smaller than him. Then again at this moment the only thing running through Jared's head was that he was kissing Bragie.
In the pit of his stomach he felt nervous to the point that he felt sick. He swayed slightly mostly because he was still up on his toes so it strained him slightly, but the feeling of Bragie's arms around him just made it feel like it was worth it. Eventually, he did have to pull back. He opened his eyes and pulled his arms from Bragie's neck before he went back down on his feet. Then he wrapped his arms around the other boy's torso, still not sure if this was all true.
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Post by Myranda on Jul 14, 2010 18:39:47 GMT -6
Bragie sat in silence with Jared for a couple of mi utes; breathing, processing, and coming to grips with what had just happened. He took deep, steady breaths, his arms still around Jared as he did so. He felt right for the first time in a while, and didn't want that feelin to go away with denial. So, he accepted it. He was gay, and in love with his roommate.
But he couldn't come out with it just yet. He was too scared of what people would think, what his family would think. He loved Jared, but he wasn't sute when he'd be ready to come out with it. "I'm not lying to you. I really do mean it." Bragir reminded him, finally after the silence.
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Post by Dani on Jul 14, 2010 21:38:45 GMT -6
Jared nodded, "Yeah, I trust you," he muttered, although he was still wary about all of this. He kept his arms wrapped around Bragie's torso, since he didn't want to lose this moment or let it end just yet. In the back of his mind he still couldn't believe that Bragie was actually gay and he worried about how all of this would go.
Trying to make the mood a bit lighter, he decided to speak. "Well, we make an odd couple, don't we?" he asked a bit jokingly, although he was entirely happy to be with Bragie, but they did look odd since Jared was an ex druggie among other things and was as skinny as a twig while Bragie was a jock who was both taller and stronger.
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Post by Myranda on Jul 15, 2010 9:59:01 GMT -6
Bragie let a smile escape and even a small chuckle. "Ha, I guess we do, huh?" His arms were still around Jared, and he wondered how long he could stay like this. He still had two hours before the meeting with his teacher. He'd probably accidentally miss the meeting and stay with Jared all day. Maybe.
Bragie was still slightly unsettled. "How do you feel about all of this?" He asked, looking down at the boy. He didn't know how he felt; happy, confused, scared shitless maybe? He knew eventually he would have to tell people, and that was the worst part. Knowing what people would think. Would they all be disgusted with him?
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Post by Dani on Jul 15, 2010 11:03:09 GMT -6
Jared smirked and then looked up at Bragie. He shrugged, "I don't know really," he said. "I mean any other relationship I've been in never lasted long at all," he explained. He bit his lip ring, "But I'm happy that we're together although I'm nervous about how all of this will go." Which it was all true, he looked down at the floor and then back up to Bragie still trying to let his mind wrap around all of this. He really was dating Bragie.
Back at home his family knew he was bi and had been aware before when he dated another boy, although his mother wishes he would rather date a girl. In Austin he had faced the teasing that came from others knowing he dated guys, which it was actually because of that that his front tooth was chipped because he had gotten into a fight with someone who had started to tease him.
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Post by Myranda on Jul 15, 2010 11:26:48 GMT -6
Bragie was silent again, for a bit. He would gulp every so often as he considered how it would go. He was sharing a dorm room with his.... You know. boyfriend. "I can't tell my family." He choked out finally, holding his breath so he wouldn't tear up at the thought. His parents had always been so loving, but they always pushed him to his limit so he was the best of the best. His dad was a pretty hardcore republican; he would probably beat the shit out of Bragie if he found out.
His mom on the other hand would just stop talking to him. She would have to go along with his father; all obedient, submissive wives did. She would probably sneal him the occasional phone call just to see how he was doing. And his sister? She'd love him forever, no doubt. She would be totally okay with it. It was just his parents he had to worry about .
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Post by Dani on Jul 15, 2010 14:08:51 GMT -6
Jared nodded, "Okay," he muttered. He looked down at the floor again and then let go of Bragie although he stayed standing in front of the other boy. He ran a hand through his hair as he still tried to come into grips with all of this. He then rubbed the back of his neck before he looked back up to Bragie, "I guess I kinda know how you feel," he stated.
"My dad never liked the idea of me being gay or bi, but then again he never liked me in the first place," he added. He tilted his head slightly and dropped his arm from his neck. He started to wonder what they should do now, like always Jared had nothing to do, but now there was this whole thing about the two boys dating.
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Post by Myranda on Jul 16, 2010 21:25:36 GMT -6
"My relationship with my dad is as good as it's ever been." Bragie said. "This would crush it." He knew that Jared didn't need some alone time to think about things, but he did. It still bothered him. It felt right, but it also felt dirty. He felt like it was wrong for him to have feelings for Jared, but he had just kissed him. Itnwas now that Bragie was starting to qish that he had waited a little longer before telling Jared. Maybe he could have prevented this mess.
He knew Jared wouldn't see it that way. Jared didn't give off the impression that he cared. He was okay with everybody knowing his sexuality, and that scared Bragie. What if he got cocky and told a few people about their relationship? He'd be in a whole heap of embarrassing trouble. And then there would be the people who told him not to run from who he is, and that would just piss him off. Everything was happening so fast, too fast.
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Post by Dani on Jul 17, 2010 7:44:31 GMT -6
Jared nodded although he was nowhere near able to relate to the idea of someone being close to their father. "Well, then I guess we just won't tell anyone," he said. He shoved his hands into his pockets and looked down at the floor before back up to Bragie. It felt weird to stand in front of the other boy like this, or to think of him as his boyfriend. By now it felt like all of this had come out of nowhere, then again, it pretty much did.
As far as not telling anyone, Jared felt split on the idea. First he was excited that he finally had a boyfriend, but second he was always scared of what kind of teasing came from it. He shook his head, "I promise I won't tell anyone," he confirmed. "I don't really need another punch to the face mess up my teeth anymore," he added. Normally, he didn't care about promises unless they were for people extremely close to him, or, selfishly, something came out of it for him. In this case; Bragie was a close friend, who was now his boyfriend, and if he kept the secret he could probably avoid fights.
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Post by Myranda on Jul 19, 2010 15:04:24 GMT -6
Bragie moved closer to Jared and leaned down to give him another gentle kiss on the lips. It really did come out of nowhere. One second he was looking forward to seeing Jared and the next he realized it was because he was in love with the boy. Bragie pulled away slowly, so they were still close, and thanked him for keeping the secret. It meant a lot to him that he was with someone that may not have understood but respected him enough to do what he said. Then again, Bragie was more of the pants-wearer of the two.
If by chance the secret did get out, people wanting to beat hm up was his smallest worry. Bragie was a pretty big guy, if anyone tried to hurt him or Jared he would just smash them. If word got back home, he'd be in trouble, but we've already addressed that. "I won't let anybody beat you up." Bragie said, shaking his head a little. "That's my promise to you."
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Post by Dani on Jul 19, 2010 22:27:23 GMT -6
Jared couldn't help but smile when Bragie kissed him. He just couldn't get over it, he was actually with this boy, he was actually his boyfriend. Gently, he kissed the taller boy in return, which it felt awkward that he was older boy just about had to get onto his toes to kiss Bragie. He went back onto his feet but remained close to Bragie. The boy still wasn't sure about this whole secret thing, but then again Jared didn't know anybody but Bragie at this school, so who would he tell?
At the statement of someone trying to beat him up, Jared snickered, "Well, I'm flattered, but I can take care of myself." The fact that the teenage boy had been in a lot of fights was apparent in how his knuckles were torn up from punching and there were just random scars that were from one thing or another.
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